My summer goal

I have decided to make a summer goal for me. My goal is to read 6 books by Sep 1. Shouldn't be to bad huh?? It's a way to make my self find time for ME!! I am off to the book store this week to buy my first book. I'm not sure what to get. Any reccomendations?? Anyways after each book I will post a reveiw about it. If i finish my goal for the summer I will make even a bigger goal for fall. But that is far off .lol

This week!

This has been such a long week. I'm so glad it's over. I'm so tired that I've been going to bed super early every night. I just have no energy left by the time the kids go to bed. I have no idea how moms before me did it.My dads mom ran her own salon, did all the housework, cooked all meals and my dad said the house was always clean. How the heck did she do it? I try my best but I swear I don't know how much longer I can do it. Eric does help some. He does almost all the dishes. This is on chore I decided I wouldn't do anymore. I do everything else so it won't kill him to do the dishes and he does it without complaint, mainly because he knows he has no choice.

My poor Mally has a black eye. My dad took the kids to the mcdonalds play area and she fell on her face. I would take a pic but my camera battery died so I have to wait to take more pics till I get one.

Here is my pic of the week. This as Mondy when Mally was taking a bath. She saw the camera and starting yelling "cheese" lol

Rambleings

I'm feeling down this week. Not really sure why. Just one of those weeks i guess. Things at work have been kind of stressfull lately so I know that is part of the reason, but not totally. I am still loving my new place but I think I'm becoming a little obseesed and drive my hubby completley insane. I clean as soon as I get home from work or as soon as I get up. I just don't want it to get dirty so I feel like I have to stay on top of it. Eric has decided to go to Culinary school (did I spell that right) and they will help him find a job when schooling is done. It's kind of cool and he's super excited (to excited because that's all he's talking about tonight). We just have to find a sitter. That's going to be our biggest problem, but I'm sure things will work out. I'm throwing in a pic from yesterday. I love it and it cracks me up. It looks like she's upset in the pic but acutlly she was lauging and saying cheese. I love how she is covering up half of Mason's face. LOL

Hate feeling this way

I hate the way I have been feeling lately toward my kids. Dont get me wrong I love my kids more then anything in this world and would knock anyone over who tried to hurt them in any way but lately I always feel fustrated when I'm around them. I love my life, I really do. There isnt any thing I'd want to change right now. But when I am alone with the kids, I'm am never happy. Meaning, I'm always fustrated and feel like all I do is tell them no, you can't do this, or stop fighting, put that down, get way from that, etc.... I want to be able to enjoy every moment with them but how can I do them when I feel like all I do is correct them. I look forward to bed times and times when i am away from them. Mallory cries over everything and Mason backtalks me about everything so every moment with them is me getting mad at them for being that way. I feel like I can't do any thing without them driving me crazy. Eric seems to handle it better then i do and he stays so calm. how does he do that?

I just needed to vent. I know this is probably a normal feeling for lots of parents but I'm just so tired and fustrated

picture of the week!

I took this pic last night. The kids were watching Eric play some game on the computer.

"Terribe" Two's

Oh, my little drama queen. I tease often that if Eric and I had her first we wouldn't have had anymore kids. Of course I'm not totally serious but she really does exhaust me more the my job. Tonight we were eating at a nice little italian place up the road and a fly landed on her plate. Oh , well she was just not having it and she threw a fit saying "no fies" not meaning , no fly's but meaning she didnt want it to eat her fries. LOL She was crying and I couldnt help but giggle. So then she got some ketcup on her shirt and we just can't have that either so then she was trying to take her shirt off. Mason was never like this. Though if you went back to when he was two i 'm sure I could tell you some "two" stories. But at times, I don't want this age to end. I love the way she will come up to me out of the blue and say "mommy ok?". It just melts my heart. And I know if a few years i will miss these terrible twos and will want them back. So for now, i will try and enjoy the drama and the tantrums that come daily, eh, hourly. lol

Were in!!

Well we are all moved in...for the most part, There are still a few things we need to get but nothing that is very important. We love it here . Its sooo much better then where we lived before. It's actully startng to feel like home. Mason has already made friends and is never home. We live on a very quiet street so it's a great place for him to play. I love, love, love having a washer and dryer. It's the best!! After not having one for almost 6 years it's so great to not have to go to the laundry mat. I havent gotton many pics of the "after" but I got a few of the before. Weve been really busy and today is the first day we've really "relaxed. Mallory is not adjusting to well. Each day it gets better but she gets time where she will wine and cry saying " I wanna go bye bye" Meaning she wants to go "home". On the first night it took forever to get her to sleep and she woke up at 4 am screaming. She won't go play alone and has to be stuck up are butts. I know it will get better with time. Mason always adjusted so eaisly to things so i guess I expected her to as well. The first pic is of my washer and dryer. It was taken the day we moved in and we put the lap top up on the washer so I could listen to music while putting things away.This is part of the living room and dining room.This is the kitchen from the dining room veiw.

This is Mason , Mallory and my neice lauren (who came for the weekend to help) in the living room while we waited for Eric to bring boxes

This was Sunday after we got the couch in. We've move things around a little since then.

This is the finished dining room. I love this room!

And here is miss Mally hanging out in the yard. I promis to take more pics of how the rooms look now. But we've been so busy and are just so tired.

This is it!

Tonight we sign the papers and tomorrow starts the moving!! I'm so excited but nervous at the same time. I have off all weekend so all my attention can be focused on moving and all. My neice is coming down tonight to help. Thank goodness she is, because i dont think we could get it all down without her.

After tonight I wont be on for a few days or even a few weeks. It depends on how long it takes us to get internet up at the new place. Hopefully it won't be to long because I don't think I can go that long without internet lol.

I will have some pics next time I get back too!!!

Wish us luck!

I did it....

Well after contemplating forever. I broke down and got Mally's hair cut. My mom is a hairdresser so she said she would do it.
I loved her long hair but she would fight me to brush it or put it up and as soon as it was up she would pull it up and then it would get all in her face which I hate and get all sticky and I felt like I was always washing it.

I am very happy with it. I think she looks so cute and I'll let it grow and maybe by the time it gets long enought to "play" with again she will be out of that stage. I can still put bows in it if I want or cute headbands.

It looks healthier now and since she doesn't want it up it looks healthier now and not all in her face.

One step foward

Were moving!! I'm ecstacic and anxious all at the same time. it seems to good to be true. i'm not even going to know how to act. I've hated this place for so long. It has no tub (stand up shower only) all kitchen cabnits are down and it has always been a pain, no room for a kitchen table, no closets, no real yard for my kids to play, no washer and dryer and this new place has all this. I feel like i'm going to wake up any moment and it all be a dream. I am so afraid that something is going to happen and we wont move. But the woman assured us more then once that it was ours. It's a farther drive to work but I don't even care. I just sooo want to be out of here and in our new place. i have so many plans for it. I haven't even started packing yet and we are moving in one week!!! This is all so overwhelming but so exciting!

Work is going good, but busy. I like that though because then I don't have much time to think and thinking is the last thing I need to do right now.

I have no new pics today but I promise to get some this week and to get some of our new place!!!!

picture of the week!

I probably won't be around much for the rest of the week so I though I would share a pic that I took Sunday at the beach! I love that pic!!

two steps back....

I haven't gotton to post a blog in a few days. I've been super busy. I haven't had a day off in over a week now and its starting to get to me but I'm trying to stay chipper. We got some news Friday. We have to be out of here by July 15. I serisouly have no idea what we are going to do. I have no idea how we will find a place to live in that short of time. I'm am trying not to dwell on it because I will just burst in tears and I don't want to do that. I have to stay strong. I feel like, that what is meant to be will be. If it comes down to it then we might have to move to Ga and stay with my oldest sis for a while. Not really what I want to do but it beats being on the street with two kids. I need to start packing this week but I just have no energy. I dont even know where to begin.

We just got back from dinner with friends a very yummy mexican resturant. Best mexican I've ever had. And the margirtia's were the best too!!

I am going to bed now. Need to get up early.......again :)